Because of my health the past few weeks, I have decided to take the spring semester off, and continue my education in the fall. My plans are still to transfer to LCU, which I'm excited about. It's just hard to wait.
Since we really can't go any further in finding out how to fix or control my situation with my pain, we've decided to find somewhere that will help me handle and deal with my pain, since I can't control it. We're hoping to find a pain treatment center that will give me tips and tools to help me deal with my daily pain. Not only will this center help me with the physical pain, but the emotional as well. I can't even begin to describe the emotional roller coaster I've been riding for the past two years. It's had it's up and downs, curves and twists, and then of course, the corkscrew. The worst of it all. When you feel like everything is just crushing you and pulling you down (just like on a real roller coaster. I hate the corkscrews! It's so hard to breathe!).
Anyways. If there's one thing I've learned from the past two weeks, it's this: Just because (a lot of) things don't go your way right now, it doesn't mean something good won't happen in the future. It's frustrating when life seems to be looking up and then it all goes downhill for the 6382632th time. It makes you want to just give up for good. Just stop trying. But that's exactly what Satan wants and you can't give in! He will do all he can to make your life miserable. But it's only if you let him.
Sure, I'm disappointed that I'm not going to Lubbock next semester. But I know that good will come out of everything we are going to be doing this coming year to help handle and live with my pain.
Peace and love,
Jenae
