Someday I'll meet my Prince Charming, because I'm a daughter of the KING!

This post is one from my eyes. It's a lesson that I've come to finally learn after time and time again of missing the affection and attention of a boy. I tried too hard to dress to impress, and look good wherever I went. But finally, just finally, I've realized something very important: settling is NEVER the answer, no matter how much you miss the attention. And I know that I'll meet somebody someday, I just have to let it happen. Love can't be forced.

So, life has been pretty busy the past 2 years, so I really didn't have time for dating... And, honestly I was stuck at my house all the time, so how would I have the chance to meet anybody? Naturally, being a teenage girl, yeah, I'd love to have a boyfriend! But I can't date if I'm not out in the world.

A lot of girls are known to go to college to get their "MRS" degree, or a "ring by spring". At the beginning of my Freshman year, I told myself, Pshhh, Jenae, you're definitely not that girl. You're going to learn more about Photography and Graphic Design. If you meet a guy, great! If not, be patient! But slowly I found myself paying less attention to my classes and more attention to who was in them. If there was a guy I thought was cute, I found myself trying to become friends with him or flirting with him. Everyday I would walk in hoping that a guy would sit by me. Yes. I reached the lowest level. I became desperate. When I realized how desperate I became, I was so embarrassed. I told myself I would never become that girl! And what did I do? I became that girl...

But in this past six months of being stuck in my house or at the hospital, I've had a lot of time to think. No, I can't change who I am, God made me the way He wanted to, and I have to accept that and learn to love myself before I can love someone else. Sure, I can lose weight, dye my hair, wear make up and all that, but don't you want your future spouse to love you for who you are, no matter what you look like on the outside? A good friend of mine taught me that. I've always prayed for God to send me my "Prince Charming" and I've always hoped that it would be like, maybe I dunno the next day, or at least in the next month... But that's not how prayer or God works. It's not like mail order, or a fortune cookie. Everything is on God's time, he is the author of this story, not me. I just have to wait and see what the next chapter holds.

It's so funny... All of this is SOOOOO much easier said than done. But today I finally realized a very important lesson: I am a daughter of the King, and someday I will meet my Prince Charming! I cannot and will not let any boy walk all over me, no matter how much I miss the affection or attention of a relationship. I am worth more than that. I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy! My relationship with God is the most important thing in the world, and is what I should be (and what I should have been) focusing on the entire time. How am I supposed to love another human being if I can't even love myself, let alone love the Master and Creator of the universe whole-heartedly and unconditionally? That's the lesson here, folks. By no means am I swearing off dating for awhile or anything, I'd be happy to go on a date or two. But what I have to realize is I have to be patient.

I know this seems like the typical "girl power" post, and if you're reading this, I hope it finds you well. It's really random, but to me this is an important lesson to be learned, especially at the age where you're looking for the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with. You don't want to look back 50 years later and realize that you settled for someone who doesn't deserve you, and in turn who deserves someone else.

God has a plan for everyone, even YOU. Pray everyday, and thank Him everyday. Because you never know when that someone might just pop up. :)


Peace and Love,
Jenae